Saturday, 25 February 2023

Three Months On

 



Billy died on this day 3 months ago. Everyone who has carried on chatting on here with me, commenting on my posts, and supporting me during this time can stay.
I understand that life goes on and I don't expect you all to put your life on hold for my journey.
I am, however, genuinely puzzled as to why most of Billy's family totally ignored that I cared for THEIR very poorly family member for 9 years when most of them couldn't be bothered even to drop by once in a while for a few minutes to check on Billy and chat with him for the whole 9 years I looked after THEIR family Member.
I would have understood if the family that neglected him had lived thousands of miles away, but they mostly live in the same town or nearby.
True colours and all that.


Tuesday, 14 February 2023

Where Is Everybody?

 My best friend died in November last year and I was his live-in carer. He has a huge family in the same town and none of them, except a couple of notable exceptions, who supported Billy for years, has called, texted, nor contacted me on social media since he died nor since the funeral.

My biggest supporters include family and friends who are the same people who supported me when Billy was around. Some live in my home county and some from thousands of miles away. I appreciate all my friends and family. It's at times like this that we learn who our real friends are.



Monday, 6 February 2023

Universal Credit Blues Part One

 



I am preparing for a telephone appointment about Universal credit. I was sent a text today informing me that the call is this afternoon and I'm expected to magically come up with forms of ID I don't have in about an hour or so.

I have also been asked for a fit not and don't know anyone who can say whether or not I am fit for work as I haven't seen a GP for years as I have been busy caring for someone at home and couldn't leave them on their own. I am disabled and housebound. I am wondering how I am meant to look for work since I can't show that I can't work.

Friday, 27 January 2023

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Thursday, 26 January 2023

Famous Last Words Billy 1959-2022

 


Billy said this to me as I left the living room to make the bed and sorted the laundry He didn't get to have the prawn salad


Sunday, 1 January 2023

Interview with Penny Hawkins (hospice nurse)

 I was with Billy as he was dying. It is comforting to know that I was there for him through palliative and end-of-life care.

Billy asked me not to go to his funeral as I would be expected to be sociable with people who didn't spend time with him when he was alive.

The link to the interview is HERE





Tuesday, 6 December 2022

My Best Friend Just Died


My bestie that died on the 25th November this year. We had shared a home for 9 years. Back in 2013, after a couple of years of chatting on Facebook, as friends, he messaged me to tell me he was in Brighton Hospital, recovering from a leg amputation. We became 'an item' within a month or so and we were totally in love. We moved in together when he left hospital and all was going wonderfully well until 2016.
In March 2016, I collapsed at home with multiple organ failure as a complication of a bog standard cold virus. In hospital, I went into cardiac arrest and then spent several days in an induced coma.
When Billy came to visit I had no idea that we had been in a relationship so assumed this was my friend that was visiting. So when I got back home after 3 weeks in hospital, neither of us really new how to be with each other.
We decided then to scrub round all the soppy stuff and stay together as besties, sharing a place. Right up until he died, we remained best friends and we were each others caregivers, since we both had support needs. We found things to make us laugh every day and he was the best friend I have ever had.
Now, I have thousands of Facebook friends and have met very few of them, so when I announced that Billy I had died, you can guess there were many who told me he watches over me and knows what I am doing.
I really feel like replying "He was my best friend, not Santa Claus' but I generally thank people for their kinds thoughts instead xxx